Today, 18-4-09, Saturday, around 7am to 7.15am. Is called "Release".

These few weeks I've been bothered by something in my mind. I can't really sleep well, I can't really concentrate, I can't really eat, I can't really making jokes. The extreamly stress and pressure are pumped into my mind, my heart, my soul, and even my blood. The people around me are going so well and happily. Some are like chopstick, some are like new pillow, some are like Yo-yo. They're just sweet.

I thought it was really hard for me to say the word. By the way, is really hard, maybe "the worst thing ever."(quote from JA) When I say it, I surprisingly feel nothing. From that moment, I felt maybe is something wrong there, maybe it never happened to me. Yeah, I think so. I think it never even touches my heart, maybe it just touches my mind. So that my mind is keep doing bad things to me.

I really don't know exactly why is this thing happenning. I just feel release. All the stress and tired are all gone.(maybe not all) When I heard the sentences, I said in my mind "Yes! maybe this is the thing I really want" and it is good for everyone, I'm glad.

"Always expecting the worst" is also another sentence I wanted to say beside "release". Yeah, I did expected something before I asked, with a really clear image. I discuss it before, if it really happen, just let go, YEAH! And the answer is exactly accurate with what I thought of. At least this time got a single thing in my mind is correct.

Conclusion, life short, no extra time to let you think too much. Do everything that you wanted to do if you feel is correct. If you do it, make sure you never regret. If you don't do it, I'll make sure you regret. But when you do it, always expecting the worst. You never know.

And today, 18-4-2009, Saturday, 8 in the morning. Is "The end and the beginning of my life."